I have no idea what’s in store for 2011, just as I didn’t know what 2010 would bring. There is a definite comfort to knowing what’s going to happen every day, which was typical of my life back home (of course with some minor hiccups of course), but there is great excitement (and a tiny bit of stress of course) that comes with not really having a “home” and not knowing where you will be in the world in the next six months.
I am finally able to take some time off, take the last year in a bit, and I finally have a chance to breathe (which I no longer take for granted). Some people ask me what’s next for me, and when I say I am not sure, they usually ask if that stresses me out. Surprisingly, it doesn’t.
In the spirit of India, and a reoccurring theme throughout my time here has been to go with the flow. The "flow" and I have been best friends for some of this journey and ultimate enemies for other parts. As I am able to finally spend some time by myself, reflect on not only the past, but finally a chance to think about something I haven't even had a minute to think about... the future. The other day when I was in a yoga class on this rooftop in Delhi and the yoga instructor said, "just accept where you are" for some reason, it just really gave me a sense of peace. What I have learned, is not knowing what's next is sometimes actually a gift, you just have to accept where you are, because after all, it is you that got you there. The rest, well, just go with it.
I cannot express enough how thankful I am for this experience, for all of the known and unknown, the comfortable and insecure moments, the peace and the chaos, all of the things I did right, and all of my mistakes ... and most of all for all of the people who have been there along the way in my quest for complete acceptance of it all.
I want to thank you for sharing this year with me via these stories (believe me, knowing that my friends were on the other end of the computer reading these stories has given me a tremendous amount of comfort) and I wish everyone a very Happy New Year full of adventures, excitement, new journeys, many comfortable moments and some uncomfortable one’s too (it’s good for the soul!) … and of course much love and peace.